<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<emergency post

[Leo T_C_K]

This might be the last ever post i will ever make. this is absolute emergency. I had not posted about my last misfortunes nbut certain people in the community know now. I know some people will not believe me, but I am speaking the truth, from my perspective at least and my, sometimes limited knowledge.

Fact of the matter is now I was majorly robbed for the third time and that's it. They stole a bag with supplies and groceries but also the replacement backpack witrh all and most of our documents. The code card for erik's old bank card was there too, with codes to use for internet banking. Prescriptions I haven\t poiced up or gotten back to, most of our refugee based documents. This is most likely fatal for our case as a whole after it has been saboted before. I've been injured in my head now and suffer partial memory loss too. Its truly over, I can barely type this and I have so little time. Just as we started to get things back in gear, after we had so much trouble getting some of our stuff back in working order and start to work on paperwork. Finalyt we got immigration lawyer and all that to try to un,mess the mess caused by neglect of the refugee system. And it wasn't over but we made the ,most important steps. But now...we have basically no case no more.

I am now convinced that this is a stalker who follows me. Other day I noticed someone watching me from a window who I even assumed to be shapeshifter but I suppose its just someone who likes to dress like a ninja or cloaked person and adopt disguises. They let themselves known...
maybe its "Fantomas", who the fuckk knows. But I am sick of it and I am beaten too muchj. Weeks ago I already ended up in a wheelchair. Fracture and really bad sprains on top of that. They took my ability to walk and now walk normally. I was never beaten in so many different ways. This is fucking reverse-flash tier shit. Like everything thjat hurts me the mopst now I must endure. Fuck this bullshit.

they didn't steal real valuable stuff, again and again its only stiuff that hurts us the most, normal thjieves don't do this. I hate admitting defeat but this is too much. This fucking reminds me that stupid "ballad of ash" and be careful what you wish for ending...

fuck

I might not be heard from ever again...also due to zeur's incresingly more unstable mental health, he wanted to walk off already. we need protectiona dn staboility and these situations cause him to flip to the point of it being most harmful towards me too. I don't want to say much more.

[Leo T_C_K]

I found a socket to charge the laptop I thougt it was over.......

as in that it will run out of battery

either way im hell exhausted and tired and sick, literally in all senses of the word.

This is the end for me. I became a loser, totally humiliated in everything. This is what that person wants, whoever it really is.

And increasingly people told me that I did something I did not. This makes sense as that person seems to have a long-hair wig if it isnt outright a shapeshifter. <there was a drone that was watching/observing us too before this happened.

Also either way ,maybe we\re also being victims of post-hypnotic suggestionms if we fall asleep/lose conciousness as some of te shit doesn't make any sense...what zeur claims i told him. It was the exact opposite of what I said than what he remembers. Like I kept saying we shouldn't fall asleep in this place...but it ended up happening for him while I was attacked. Like I would never tell him that we should sleep now and that kinda stuff. It soudnds like whatever the robber wanted/ oh god....

[Leo T_C_K]

it turned out the bank card itself was also stolen,
also keep being mistreated now even by outreach folk
i have no words at this misery

[Leo T_C_K]

So...a few daysago the modem phone got stolen too and charger and the phone while on hospital grounds.The camera didn't capture the thief he must have been too fast and the angle was too bad...I can't believe this. its unreal. it had also the sim associated with the polish bank account, rendering it nearly completely useless now. we couldnt even inish the police recoird we decided to ive up and start leaving and this is not all....see what iu mean...its utter defeat

[Hyper]

It looks like you really need an intervention to get your life on the rails again.
Someone who can takes over control of the situation and takes care of organizing the beginning of a future for you again. So you can get physical safety, security of having a place to live and to have your belongings and start designing a future. You may need therapy as well to learn to trust people again. Which will be very difficult because of your experiences with people taking advantage of you. But you cannot handle everything on your own as we are meant to be social people. Be hesitant with psychiatric medications that they may offer you. For some they are very helping, but they often come with severe side effects. If so, keep dosing and duration at a minimum.

But above all you need safety. At this point you need to get the base two levels of Maslow's Pyramid in order for you. Only then you have a base to grow from and pick up your life again.
Question remains, after all you went through, is if you can find the right caregiver who can start arranging this for you. And more importantly, if you are willing and able of giving up a level of control so they can do their work towards a future for you.

[Leo T_C_K]

yes indeed (though they will help you first with anything else but mental and neurology health which is in general not being treated seriously often).
But i am left speechless after the last night and what was revealed to me, even though I was sceptical at first. I am not the only target. It feels like someone out there is trying to erase me completely, make me irrelevant and disappear. I can't talk about it more because part of it is only so insane, yet this is physicaly happening somehow. Whether or not that explanation is correct.

[thenewkgb]

I will add I've suffered with mental health and see a lot of what I used to endure. If actual things disappear or physical damage is actually done, and can be proved to the police, this is a real danger. If the police don't take notice, or friends look away, then a person describing what I see is in danger to themselves and others. A voice or paranoia can be 100% believable unless other people can say without doubt this is really happening.

[Leo T_C_K]

OK I'm fucking sick of these rumors going around that I might be locked up in a mental hospital and similar. Or even insinuating that anything I say might be fantasy. I am not RUFX, I am not Luke either (while I was sometimes confused for either) even though they might be more suitable candidates for such insitutions and keep reinterpreting my words in their own way and then rumor mill comes around. I am sick of this bullshit and my legacy being tarnished by the likes of hogsy and others who like to tell people I am mentally ill and make everything up. In those cases I'd like to say: Go %% yourselves.

I will not bother saying anything else except that I did catch some thieves red-handed and then suddenly there wasn't enough "witness" whatever. Exactly the same kind of folk that hogsy hangs around with are stealing from me.

[Leo T_C_K]

As zeur can't use his account right now *unless someone returns us the modem phone or gets us another one*, because the hotspot phone was stolen and the laptop where zeur has the details and can post with can't be connected to the "regular wi-fi" networks, I need to post this as well:


(Writing this, on our scratch craptop, from a public library.)

Mecan't escape the impression that the dipshits spreading these
unfounded theories about us (and Leo in particular) do so largely out
of fear that they'll themselves be targeted by the system one day,
should they not continuously affirm their loyalty by stepping on the
system's enemies, justified or not.

(Like the furry fandom, the Unreal *cough* community *cough* is known to
contain a disproportionate amount of genuinely unstable types that
would, in the end, have much more to fear from the system than we do.)

Anyway, a *lot* of regular citizens see what's happening and, unlike
how these things go in Europe these days, not only vocally oppose the
way we're being treated, but also try & help out as much as they can.

Which isn't enough by itself. The system is stronger than them. But it
ain't stronger than us. We keep fighting. At least we no longer feel
quite so alone.

Think of this all what you will, but me'll caution that judging things
over the interwebz without taking notice of what's happening IRL is not
always a wise idea.